Anxiously Awaiting

Where to begin? I picked up another contract job. I am now the project manager on one of these jobs–which brings a multitude of responsibilities in addition to my application layer work I have to finish–and this new contract job is a decent chunk of code. Last night I went to bed at 4:00am after working on some stuff for Job A only to rise at 8:00 to get ready for Japanese class at 9:30. In addition I have a harsh deadline of two weeks for Job B. Talk about a hardcore test in time management. So here I sit amongst a multitude of printer explosions (my least favorite type of problem to troubleshoot) writing away my thoughts.

It’s these times when it is hardest to be happy that I find myself at the most peace. I don’t know why but I tend to operate the most efficiently under tight deadlines and alot of stress. I think it has something to do with being indecisive. My “iron will” is a centerpiece for jokes among some of my friends, and I think when Im overwhelmed I don’t have time to analyze things and second guess myself. So I do what comes natural. I go with the gut feeling. That’s probably why I enjoy being under high stress. Maybe I’m masochistic, maybe I’m crazy, or maybe I’m most motivated when I have a hurricane knocking at my door.

Nevertheless, I am excited about both projects. One project employs a cool new technology called Open Laszlo and the other is a massively complex database system. I have no doubts that I will come away from these projects with a load of skills and experience that will help me the next time I get myself into a crazy situation like this. But hey, I like pain.